AsuKh

The blog turns bilingual today with a short Bangla piece, a story in monologue like a journal entry, detailing the reflections of a troubled young woman. I wrote this more than an year back as a challenge for myself to write effectively on such a topic in Bangla.  The entry here is a condensed version of what I have in the original manuscript. This was my first attempt at typesetting Bangla. So advance apologies are being demanded when it comes to some obvious spelling error.

 

AsuK

Vjek jÔrFa ŸsBaeb  Vesin| Haèa jÔrFa Vim ŸbS ˆpeBag kir| kÜl muir idey mâdu kaƒpuinr Vemj  Vr tÐ inˆrenr  AnYrkm AnuBUitFa Vmar kaeC ŸbS ipãy| Vjek …kFu ŸbFar ViC bel ŸBebiClam kelejr pRaFa …igey raKeba, ikǼ sarFa idn iF iB Ÿt ikCu  AKadY Ÿpãagãam ŸdeK† Ÿbirey Ÿgl| 

dupur nagad haW Ÿsn …esiCeln| …k sÐaH Hl naàis„ ŸHam  ŸCeRiC, ikǼ  ha¹¡ar …Kena Ÿraj …es ŸdeK Zan| CaRa Ÿpey ikCuFa Helw ŸbƒeciC| Vmar KaeFr maTar kaeC raKa sa†h-ŸFiblFa Vmar bR† ipãy| wet …kFa Pšldain reyeC| taet ikCu ibeSxtÔHIn påaiöekr Pšl| …Fa ŸbaDHy ŸragIr mn Bal raKar …kFa purena ŸkOSl| Vmar AbSY mn Bal Hy ŸFibel raKa …kFa klmdaen keykFa klm saijey raKar smy| klm§lek Ÿkmn ŸZn inejr Vpnjn men Hy| wedr r„ AnuZayI Ÿraj …kFa ntun parimˆeFSen saja†| wedr nam id†| kKena kKena …kFa klm Hyt Hairey Zay| tKn …kFa ntun naemr ntun klm Ves| na Haraelw AbSY nam Ÿc² Hy maeJmaeJ| … bYapar Fa ŸPçi¤ebl| naiàs„ ŸHaemw klm §l iney ŸgiClam| ikǼ sa†h-ŸFiblFa iCl na| ca†el† Hyt …en idt wra, ikǼ Vim muK P™eF kaˆek ikCu ca†et s«c ŸbaD kir| Vmar baba bR ha¹¡ar; ma kàperF …kisikˆiFB| ŸCaFr ŸTek† sbikCu na ca†et† Ÿpey ŸgiC| cawyar, †e¬C  Hwyar, ABYasFa† Ÿkanidn otrI Hyin|

baba-mar Aenk Faka| ta† haW Ÿsn Ÿk ŸrajŸraj Vnaena sÝb He¬C| babaw AbSY ŸdeKn maeJmaeJ| ikǼ Vmar AsuKFa ibeSx DreNr|  sa†ekaesamYaiFk| menr idk ŸTekw ikCu smsYa VeC| haW Ÿsn … bYapaer ibSard| Prsa, kaƒcapaka cul Vr ŸgƒaP-ibiSñ BÅelak Ÿk Vmar Kub …kFa Bal laegna| …nar nanarkm prIQa-inirQa Vim §belF krar Ÿcña kir| kKena ŸbiS AsueKr Ban kir| pãeSÈr ˆ¹r kKena Bul, kKena ifk id†| Vim sa†ikyYaiFär b† peRiC| Vr AiBny kretw Bal† laeg| Vsel ŸCaFeblar …kakItÔ ŸGacaet Vim Aenk bÉ™ kæpna ker intam| baba ma kaej Ÿbirey Ÿgel Vr kaejr mais Guimey prel wedr iney† Taktam, ŸKltam, kTa bltam| ikǼ Vim sbsmy† jantam wra Ÿkˆ† baó»b ny| Vmar iS‡ejaPerinya Ÿn†| maeJmaeJ …† kaæpink bÉ™edr otrI kret ŸbS  Ÿbg Ÿpet Ht| inejr imeTYFa inejek ibSÿas kraNFa ŸbS kifn Hey prt| ikǼ ŸCaFeblar Ÿs† ABYaesr jnY† ŸbaDHy Vj Vmar kaeC imeTYFa Kub sHj, ÷aBaibk| sitYFaek Kub …kFa ˆƒcu ba †nBaeyaelF iHeseb ŸdiKin Ÿkanidn†| 

haW Ÿsenr DarNa Vim gt ikCuidenr meDY ibraF Ÿkan Sk ŸpeyiC| ˆin Vmar pRaeSana, ŸCelbÉ™ VeC ikna, …sb iney KƒuiFey KƒuiFey pãSÈ kereCn| …mnik …kidn Vim smkamI ikna srasir ijeg…—S kereCn| ŸsFar ˆ¹r Vmar sitY† jana Ÿn†, karN Vmar jIben Ÿsrm Ÿkan AiBg…—ta GeF in- Vim inejr …†idkFa kKena …¤epåar kirin| ha¹¡ar Ÿk Ÿs kTa† bllam| pRaeSana iney Vim maeJmaeJ Kub isiryas Hey ˆif| ŸsFa AenkFa† Ÿk pRae¬C tar ˆpr | Vmra sba† ŸZmn keLal sYaerr Kub PYan| wnar bYi¹¡¹Ô AsaDarN; kTa beln buiÁdIÐ Bi˜et, saiHetY dKl Kub Bal| Vr kelej bÉ™ blet Aenek† VeC| ikǼ kaeCr blet Ÿs† nIpa|  nIpaFa mHa paka| bel ikna wr keLal dar ˆpr Ÿbjay º¡aS! †e¬C ker jyÇ» Ÿk ìiney ìiney bel| jyÇ» Kub srl ŸCel| pãTm idn ŸTek† nana Cuetaey nIpar kaCakaiC ŸGaraePra krar Ÿcña ker| Baeb Kub ihôáFil kreC| nIpar wr pãit iPil„s Ÿkmn ta bla S¹¡, ikǼ samnasamin wek kñ idey† VnÆd pay| nIpar cireºr …† idk Fa Vmar ŸbS AnYrkm men Hy| Vr ta† jnY† w Vmar bÉ™| manuexr cireºr KuƒiFnaiF bYitº¡m§ela† Vmaek Faen| Ÿs†idk idey  haW Ÿsnek Vmar intaÇ» saDaraN men Hy|  

haW Ÿsn Vr Ÿs† se˜ ma men kreCn Vim Ÿpãem VGa‡ ŸpeyiC|  ŸCaFr ŸTek† Vim Aenkbar Ÿpãem periC ifik| teb sbFa† kaæpink cirºedr se˜| lRak™ Ÿmjaejr maeca ba ŸramYaiÆFk HIerara Vmaek Faen na| V„ö … ŸBaga  FäYaijk HIeraedera Bal laegin|  …ra ŸZn sba† pur›xedr inejedr sÚprek PYaÆFais Tek† otrI| Bal ŸlegeC saFl Vi¸reöFhcirºedr, Zara kKena VýPaln kerin, bIrtÔ jaiHr kerin| "Ÿgara'-r ibny † Vmar Paö º¡aS| HYaƒ, klej Vmar Aenk ŸCel bÉ™ VeC| ikǼ Vim ŸCelemey ŸdeK bÉ™tÔ kirna| Zaedr Bal laeg taedrek† Vpn ker in| ŸsFa ma ŸbaeJ na| kaˆek Balbasa ik At† sHj?  

 Vim baiRr ba†er ŸbiS Ÿbera†in| klkata SHrFaw Ÿs Baeb icin na|  ib … paS ker ik krb jain na| Hyeta …m …| ma men ker Vmar Ÿkan ViÜSan Ÿn†| ikǼ ŸsFa Ÿta Ÿkan Ÿrag ny| Vmar menr ikCu smsYa VeC ifik, ŸZmn Vim prIQar Veg Kub naàBas Hey pir, Kawyadawya Kub kimey ŸPil| ikǼ …rm Ÿta kt Ÿlaekir Hy| Vr ŸSx AbiD Ÿta prIQa Bal† id†| Vim jIben …Kena ik kret ca† ifk kirin| sb ikCu Cek ŸPlel ik† ba Ca† baik Taek? 

 pUb idekr janla Far paS sar ŸbƒeD Aenk §l ipƒpeR ŸHƒeF Zae¬C| Vmar maTaFa Vbar iJmiJm kreC| Guimey pir| Bal lageC| …bar ÷pÈ ŸdKb|